Theme and Variation



Meatball appears to be gone for good. I found him hiding under the passion flower vines the first time he escaped. I put him back in his pen and bribed him with a fat juicy snail. Wild creatures- they only have contempt for their captors regardless of the fine treatment they receive. And so he is gone again. J says if a dog bites his head and he bleeds to death, that is his fate and I shouldn't artificially deny him such an end. She is right of course.



Is life a switchback between 3 phases?

1. You don't know what you want, hence fill your time with interim activities.

2. You know what you want, and are in pursuit.

3. You know what you want, but can't get it, and hence must make do.



Like Hugo, I love triumvirates, triangles, threesomes, trios, and the curve of 3s. But it continues-



4 is the disappointingly extended 2. You thought you knew what you wanted, but it's not it at all so you are back to 1.

5. A weak fifth, variation on 3 - you think you know what you want but since you can't get it, you really can't know- could you.

6. The perversion of 2 & 3- because you can't have what you want, you convince yourself that you really want what you can have



Now for completion of the 3 cubed, I must drum up 3 more-

7. You know you only want the wanting of something hence purposely deny yourself the fulfillment of the want

8. Negation state. Advanced stages of 3 and 6, you reject the very thing you want because you know you can't have it or attempting it is dangerous.

9. Confusion state. You want it, you don't want it, you don't know any more.



Despite variation, 2 is ever the desired state- like being in love. Too much Erich Fromm is not good for you.